I should assume I'm a typical Pisces.. It very much describes me.. take a read if you are interested to know me beyond face-value... Anyway.. the language sucks.. And I'm not responsible for it.. hahahah...
PISCES WOMAN
She likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality. She is weak and sensitive when it's come to "Love". She can cry if her best friend is breaking up, and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boyfriend who is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at all. You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in love. More or less it will be in Pisces woman. She loves small animal and gifted in training animals. She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature. Even she has a good sixth senses, she can not pick or foreseen her own choice of lover. She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one night stand guy.
She likes to buy and pick her own cloths. She likes to dress cute and be cute. Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has a nice skin. Her hands and feet are small and soft. Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them. She is a hot lady that everyone wants her. Whether she has a man in her life or not, she will never try to over-power any man. It's not even in her thought. She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way. She is an easy going person, so being with her is easy. She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy. She knows how to please and how to comfort a man. If something is wrong, she will try to make other people belief that it's must be because of someone else, not because of her love one. She will not push her man to be ambition but to make him feel like he should be happy with the way he is now. She is happy with you for what you are now. A Pisces woman, if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and it will make her a very unhappy person. She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself. She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and so vulnerable to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills). She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take. If you love her, then hold her tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do next. A complex character. You may think she is a shy innocent type and can not hurt anyone, then you are wrong.
You might think she is a fragile person who needs protection, wrong again. She has been through a lot, a tough cookie. She is a dreamer and loves the word "Love", so she is the type who will buy gift for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or an anniversary even for someone who she does not know so well. Be very careful if fall in love with Pisces woman. She can be a total different person before and after. She can be an angle before and later a witch, but everyone is not perfect, right? She will be soft and gentle most of the time, so not to worry. She is emotional and extremely sensitive when she frequently got hurt. She is the type who can cry her heart out. She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone. She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she can hide that feeling by being stubborn. She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy. She does not like to follow any fixed rules. She can be a good housewife if you know how to handle her. Many men will ask to marry her because she is a 100% woman. If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angel.
28 February 2005
First Scrutiny
Once again.. I was late for mass this morning. I literally spent 2 days preparing for it. I slept like 18 hours on Saturday just to make sure I can wake up at 8am on Sunday.. But still.. I was LATE!! Well, it's not just any ordinary mass.. But it's the rite of my first scrunity.. The priest anointed us on our foreheads and hands with oil and prayed over us. Next week is the second scrunity and counting down to Easter, aka Baptism Date... I can't wait.. hahaha..
22 February 2005
Tortured souls...
Feelings... They have set their sweet and bitter ways at tormenting our souls.
Love & Hate... They intertwine.. They work meticulously, and at the same time, recklessly.. They build and destroy...
In life... we all play the little game of love & hate sometimes. Some played too hard, some don't give a damn.. Once in a while, we got trapped in it, all alone. That's when you learn and grow...
Tonight.. I had this really private chat with my close friend's ex-boyfriend. I'm really curious about their hush-hush break up. I didn't really know what went wrong between the both of them until tonight. Besides the physical distance between them, there's more than meets the eye. Well... Not gonna let out too much details. Somehow, this guy let me into his personal thoughts and inner feelings. Some stuff that he should really be telling my friend, instead of me. To be frank, I'm really touched by his words. The feeling lingers... It tortured him...
Maybe my friend's feeling the same way too.. Maybe she's not.. I don't know. If her feelings still stays for him.. why do they want to put each other through these? If not, what can he do to end this suffering? to ease his pain?
Death is not the end. Every ending spells a new beginning.. And life is beautiful. It is indeed... But depends on how u see it. I wish this guy would break away from the shadow of gloom.. Step outside and take a deep breathe...
Love & Hate... They intertwine.. They work meticulously, and at the same time, recklessly.. They build and destroy...
In life... we all play the little game of love & hate sometimes. Some played too hard, some don't give a damn.. Once in a while, we got trapped in it, all alone. That's when you learn and grow...
Tonight.. I had this really private chat with my close friend's ex-boyfriend. I'm really curious about their hush-hush break up. I didn't really know what went wrong between the both of them until tonight. Besides the physical distance between them, there's more than meets the eye. Well... Not gonna let out too much details. Somehow, this guy let me into his personal thoughts and inner feelings. Some stuff that he should really be telling my friend, instead of me. To be frank, I'm really touched by his words. The feeling lingers... It tortured him...
Maybe my friend's feeling the same way too.. Maybe she's not.. I don't know. If her feelings still stays for him.. why do they want to put each other through these? If not, what can he do to end this suffering? to ease his pain?
Death is not the end. Every ending spells a new beginning.. And life is beautiful. It is indeed... But depends on how u see it. I wish this guy would break away from the shadow of gloom.. Step outside and take a deep breathe...
17 February 2005
Fundamentals of Majong...
Today was a dreadful day!! I've been trapped at home doing work. Urgh!!! After that 10,000 word dissertation, now I'll have to complete another one.. Not that heavy in word count.. but not much lighter. 6K loh... :(
Very grim for the whole week already... But perks of the day? haha.. Mom bought roasted duck and bak kwa!! Wah.. haha.. At least I have a good dinner lah..
Then Jordan came to visit and we had coffee after that. Since nothing to do, so he explained the fundamentals of Majong to me. I was never interested in Majong till I met him.. Well, he's downright obsessed with the game.. So I guess it'll be good that I learn.. It was kinda confusing.. all that "Wan's", "bamboo's", "tong's" and stuff.. But I'm keen. Cause gambling for leisure could be fun... So many of my friends are playing it. How can I be left out??.. haha..
Very grim for the whole week already... But perks of the day? haha.. Mom bought roasted duck and bak kwa!! Wah.. haha.. At least I have a good dinner lah..
Then Jordan came to visit and we had coffee after that. Since nothing to do, so he explained the fundamentals of Majong to me. I was never interested in Majong till I met him.. Well, he's downright obsessed with the game.. So I guess it'll be good that I learn.. It was kinda confusing.. all that "Wan's", "bamboo's", "tong's" and stuff.. But I'm keen. Cause gambling for leisure could be fun... So many of my friends are playing it. How can I be left out??.. haha..
15 February 2005
V-day Special!
Do you believe that role-playing can be fun? haha.. Well.. Jordi and me played Chefs today.. At that, Italian chefs to be specific.. We whipped up a few dishes for each other and also his family.. haha.. so nothing too kinky...
The dory was too saltish and the carbonara turned out like hokkien mee.. haha.. It has to be a different kind of Valentines this year. Such a simple affair but enjoyable and memorable too.
This is supposed to be our 4th Valentines, but it's still our 3rd. In retrospect, I should have realised what I had missed out on. It was the past. Still I regret rejecting Jordi on our "supposing" 1st v-day.
**Saving the damsel in distress**
It was CNY eve, 2002, and one sms altered our lives... I was having some serious issues with my ex-boyfriend and we had sort-of broken up. So Jordi plainly msg me some greetings for CNY and V-day (since it was just a few days away).. I told him that I don't have plans on V-day. And he asked me if I'm having problems with my bf and I said yah.. I sounded sad, so he called me and talked to me. It was weird, coz all along Jordan was just an acquaintance and I'm talking to him for the first time.. for real. I managed to pour out my woes and he listened. He consoled and we chatted about other things. Both of us felt connected and silently my heart was pounding away when he asked me out for a Valentine's date.
Well, that date didn't happened, cause apparently I screwed things up by going on a date with my ex-bf instead. And he even got flowers and a present for me. I just hang in guilt whenever I recalled that. Eventually, we got hitched, but it wasn't easy initially. All the harassment and abuse from my bastard ex-bf took its toll on my emotions but Jordan was there to nourish it. Many thought I was on a rebound and the relationship ain't gonna last. But I guess 3 years is enough to prove anyone wrong.
Being with him, it feels right. He has become my needs, my want and desire. haha.. too mushy already.. Got a feeling that I'm conjuring goosepimples. Happy Valentines, everyone!!!
The dory was too saltish and the carbonara turned out like hokkien mee.. haha.. It has to be a different kind of Valentines this year. Such a simple affair but enjoyable and memorable too.
This is supposed to be our 4th Valentines, but it's still our 3rd. In retrospect, I should have realised what I had missed out on. It was the past. Still I regret rejecting Jordi on our "supposing" 1st v-day.
**Saving the damsel in distress**
It was CNY eve, 2002, and one sms altered our lives... I was having some serious issues with my ex-boyfriend and we had sort-of broken up. So Jordi plainly msg me some greetings for CNY and V-day (since it was just a few days away).. I told him that I don't have plans on V-day. And he asked me if I'm having problems with my bf and I said yah.. I sounded sad, so he called me and talked to me. It was weird, coz all along Jordan was just an acquaintance and I'm talking to him for the first time.. for real. I managed to pour out my woes and he listened. He consoled and we chatted about other things. Both of us felt connected and silently my heart was pounding away when he asked me out for a Valentine's date.
Well, that date didn't happened, cause apparently I screwed things up by going on a date with my ex-bf instead. And he even got flowers and a present for me. I just hang in guilt whenever I recalled that. Eventually, we got hitched, but it wasn't easy initially. All the harassment and abuse from my bastard ex-bf took its toll on my emotions but Jordan was there to nourish it. Many thought I was on a rebound and the relationship ain't gonna last. But I guess 3 years is enough to prove anyone wrong.
Being with him, it feels right. He has become my needs, my want and desire. haha.. too mushy already.. Got a feeling that I'm conjuring goosepimples. Happy Valentines, everyone!!!
10 February 2005
Cheong Sam Day!
Woah.. I'm wearing a cheong sam for the first time.. For the sake of auspicious-ness in Chinese New Year..Breaking out of my comfort zone isn't something I would do everyday... But it's CNY.. WTF... It's not too bad being in my "little red dress" you know. Nothing can go wrong with something totally red in CNY.. esp the part where none of ur relative will complain about wearing the wrong colours or ur outfit being too revealing and stuff...
Somehow or rather, my intuition tells me that the Rooster year might be a good year.. Not that I believe in those feng shui magazines my mom read.. But the year started off really well.. There are some happy news.. Even my aunty who "disowned" the family had eventually relent and called to wish us today.. For nearly 10 years, my family was devestated with my aunty's decision to reject the kinship that was lost before. Well.. the story goes like she was sub-out for adoption due to the heavy burden of a large family.. Then she was only called back to her own family in her teens. I guess it was difficult for her to accept the new "ways" and was stuck in the chao of conflicts, so she opted out of it. Actually I was very disappointed with her when she didn't even turn up for my grandma's funeral. Her own mother.. mind u.. Seriously.. I don't have the heart to do that.. No matter how much I hate my mom.. After all, blood is, indeed, thicker than water. I just hope that this is the beginning to their reconciliation...
Somehow or rather, my intuition tells me that the Rooster year might be a good year.. Not that I believe in those feng shui magazines my mom read.. But the year started off really well.. There are some happy news.. Even my aunty who "disowned" the family had eventually relent and called to wish us today.. For nearly 10 years, my family was devestated with my aunty's decision to reject the kinship that was lost before. Well.. the story goes like she was sub-out for adoption due to the heavy burden of a large family.. Then she was only called back to her own family in her teens. I guess it was difficult for her to accept the new "ways" and was stuck in the chao of conflicts, so she opted out of it. Actually I was very disappointed with her when she didn't even turn up for my grandma's funeral. Her own mother.. mind u.. Seriously.. I don't have the heart to do that.. No matter how much I hate my mom.. After all, blood is, indeed, thicker than water. I just hope that this is the beginning to their reconciliation...
04 February 2005
My knight in shiny armor has saved me.. once again..
Being vexed about my bread-and-butter has been a weekly thing to me.. Every Sunday, I'll get that precious 50 bucks from my dad.. Then I'll "try" not to splurge it out at one shot.. The few months that I've been studying has been terrible.. I've to scrimp and save to make this $50 last throughout the week.
I hate this kind of lifestyle!!! And I'm sick of depending on them for that puny teeny wee bit of pocket money.. As always.. It's better that I earn my own.. I've been quite reluctant about this idea since I really wanna concentrate on my Degree.. Seems like it's impossible to bear anymore. No money for New Year clothes, no extra $$ for movies and entertainment from them.. This is HELL...
So today, I grabbed a copy of Classified and went for a couple of interviews. Well, one of the cafes are interested in hiring.. and asked me to start asap. Being desperate, I accepted. But my dear Jordan insist that I should put my concentration back on my studies since I'm just a few months away from graduation and even offer to help me out if the need arises.. It's true.. I don't wanna screw up as well.
Jordan's such a darling. He's always there to lend me a listening ear.. a shoulder to cry on and a helping hand for the damsel in distress.. He must be God's gift to me.. and I'm so blessed to have him by my side.. through ups and downs... He stood there as sturdy as a rock in our relationship and held me back whenever I tried to break-up. Dear Jordi.. This is what I should say to you.. what you once told me before..
"Within u i found myself
Without u i lost myself
Waiting to be found again..."
I hate this kind of lifestyle!!! And I'm sick of depending on them for that puny teeny wee bit of pocket money.. As always.. It's better that I earn my own.. I've been quite reluctant about this idea since I really wanna concentrate on my Degree.. Seems like it's impossible to bear anymore. No money for New Year clothes, no extra $$ for movies and entertainment from them.. This is HELL...
So today, I grabbed a copy of Classified and went for a couple of interviews. Well, one of the cafes are interested in hiring.. and asked me to start asap. Being desperate, I accepted. But my dear Jordan insist that I should put my concentration back on my studies since I'm just a few months away from graduation and even offer to help me out if the need arises.. It's true.. I don't wanna screw up as well.
Jordan's such a darling. He's always there to lend me a listening ear.. a shoulder to cry on and a helping hand for the damsel in distress.. He must be God's gift to me.. and I'm so blessed to have him by my side.. through ups and downs... He stood there as sturdy as a rock in our relationship and held me back whenever I tried to break-up. Dear Jordi.. This is what I should say to you.. what you once told me before..
"Within u i found myself
Without u i lost myself
Waiting to be found again..."
03 February 2005
Tug-of-war: Saint vs Demon
Everyday, I'm inching nearer to my baptism.. I'm pretty certain about my faith in God.. However, my parents thinks that I'm too young to make up my mind on these things. They assumed it's a blind infatuation I'm having.
Actually, I'm torn between my faith and my parents. I want their blessing - wholeheartedly... But they are still using their old-time thinking that Christians are extreme.. Like as if I'll disown them when I embrace God. Sheesh...
On my part, I'm afraid I can't fulfill my duty as a good Catholic. I tend to do the things that aren't meant to be. I can only summarise it as the tug of war between God and Satan... It's happening in my mind all the time.. I can't be really good.. but i don't wanna be really bad.. haha.. It's so complex...
On a happier note, the pineapple tart cum bak kwa season is back with a vengence!! hehehe.. Chinese New Year!! Yum!!! I can't resist them and I've been popping pineapple tarts one after another... they are so good tat i'll have to say "Once u start, u can't stop.." hahaha.. Looking forward to CNY.. With bits of goodies, extras $$ and holidays..
Actually, I'm torn between my faith and my parents. I want their blessing - wholeheartedly... But they are still using their old-time thinking that Christians are extreme.. Like as if I'll disown them when I embrace God. Sheesh...
On my part, I'm afraid I can't fulfill my duty as a good Catholic. I tend to do the things that aren't meant to be. I can only summarise it as the tug of war between God and Satan... It's happening in my mind all the time.. I can't be really good.. but i don't wanna be really bad.. haha.. It's so complex...
On a happier note, the pineapple tart cum bak kwa season is back with a vengence!! hehehe.. Chinese New Year!! Yum!!! I can't resist them and I've been popping pineapple tarts one after another... they are so good tat i'll have to say "Once u start, u can't stop.." hahaha.. Looking forward to CNY.. With bits of goodies, extras $$ and holidays..
02 February 2005
Revamp!
Alright.. Managed to do something different from the boring "DEFAULT" template from blogger. Phew! Hard work indeed..
Ok.. More motivated to do updates.. Not as in 3 months once.. Got to start writing and stop the procrastination!!!
Ok.. More motivated to do updates.. Not as in 3 months once.. Got to start writing and stop the procrastination!!!
Idiot blogger.... RESURRECTED!
Ho ho... I've gave up on my Blog and now making a come-back.. Phew! Managed to kill my 10,000-word dissertation on time.. But grades wise.. better not think first..
Just celebrated Jordan's birthday yesterday.. Today's my bro's. Well.. reminding myself that i'll be a year older in a month's time.. Turning 22 is not cool. I'm starting to think i'm losing out on my youth. Sheesh.. I've been reading Blogs of people slightly younger than me.. They seem to be having so much more fun than me when I'm their age. I guess.. the lamest thought.. is to feel "younger" by working on my Blog again..
Seriously.. It's really degrading.. esp since I'm a Multimedia Design student! Golly!! Haha.. No probs with Flash or Photoshop.. But Blogging seems like something I've never learnt in school.
Just celebrated Jordan's birthday yesterday.. Today's my bro's. Well.. reminding myself that i'll be a year older in a month's time.. Turning 22 is not cool. I'm starting to think i'm losing out on my youth. Sheesh.. I've been reading Blogs of people slightly younger than me.. They seem to be having so much more fun than me when I'm their age. I guess.. the lamest thought.. is to feel "younger" by working on my Blog again..
Seriously.. It's really degrading.. esp since I'm a Multimedia Design student! Golly!! Haha.. No probs with Flash or Photoshop.. But Blogging seems like something I've never learnt in school.
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