Gee.. I think I'm really a Net idiot man! Look at the size of this photo..
Well, You really have to forgive me.. Afterall, it's my first attempt in setting up a BLOG. Haha, at least it's better than nothing. After engaging help from an eleven-year-old (my boyfriend's little sis), I managed to upload my first photo of me and my boyfriend on My BLOG!!!!
Ok.. Time to play "SPOT THE PIMPLE" Game on my face.. hehe..
17 August 2004
16 August 2004
A Tinge of Loneliness
It has never occur to me that I'm a person who is actually afraid of being lonely. But just recently, even though I am kind of busy, I can't help but to feel a little tinge of loneliness hovering over me.
This feeling has made me think back in yesteryears that I used to like to be solitary. I was someone who thought that it's ok when I'm left alone with not even one person to care for me. But what is happening to me now?
Maybe I am now a hermit out of its shell, refusing to go back. And yes, I like being out of my shell, seeing the vibrant colours of life and meeting creatures of other sort. And somehow despite a force pushing me to retreat back to my haven of yesteryears, I refused.
I am seeing my friends less, no colleagues to hang out with, even my boyfriend hang out with me very very seldom these days. Something from my intuition tells me that he thinks I am hounding him. Simply because he thinks I have nothing better to do these days. That hurts!
Ouch! I think I better make my way back to the santuary of my shell now...
This feeling has made me think back in yesteryears that I used to like to be solitary. I was someone who thought that it's ok when I'm left alone with not even one person to care for me. But what is happening to me now?
Maybe I am now a hermit out of its shell, refusing to go back. And yes, I like being out of my shell, seeing the vibrant colours of life and meeting creatures of other sort. And somehow despite a force pushing me to retreat back to my haven of yesteryears, I refused.
I am seeing my friends less, no colleagues to hang out with, even my boyfriend hang out with me very very seldom these days. Something from my intuition tells me that he thinks I am hounding him. Simply because he thinks I have nothing better to do these days. That hurts!
Ouch! I think I better make my way back to the santuary of my shell now...
14 August 2004
If only...
Do you ever have that kind of feeling of extreme guilt? I do.
I made someone sad for a long long time. Without realising, I've given him the reason to smile. But it's all lost because of me. And till now, he hasn't found the same joy and happiness. It saddens me deeply to learn that all these happened due to my ignorance. One stupid decision.
Why is it that I've ruined someone's life without knowing it? Why is it that he has to hide and shun? Why didn't he open up? Time after time, Chances after chances, They slipped away.
Many times, he broke down when he phoned me. He didn't tell me the reason. Many years later, I knew the reason. It was me.
I'm the core. I'd planted the seed of misery. If only...
I made someone sad for a long long time. Without realising, I've given him the reason to smile. But it's all lost because of me. And till now, he hasn't found the same joy and happiness. It saddens me deeply to learn that all these happened due to my ignorance. One stupid decision.
Why is it that I've ruined someone's life without knowing it? Why is it that he has to hide and shun? Why didn't he open up? Time after time, Chances after chances, They slipped away.
Many times, he broke down when he phoned me. He didn't tell me the reason. Many years later, I knew the reason. It was me.
I'm the core. I'd planted the seed of misery. If only...
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