27 October 2005

Extract from Mei's blog

I got this off my friend's blog. I really like it cause it's sort of a reflection of my feelings too. Beautiful stuff...

artist.
artist love to express themselves.
unknowingly
perhaps through writing,
perharps through singing,
perharps through drawing,
perharps all the time but you dun realise it.
they are artist. they love to express themselves.
yet not all pple love their works.
they do wat they like and in a way expressing who they are.
u dun need everyone's approval, cos that's the truth. even there's no one, u know at the end of the day u are happy with wat u are doing.
yup, and jus by explaining wat u are expressing, it's already a joy.
till one finds favour, oh~ ur whole world suddenly jus paints with colorful rainbows.
i love being who i am.
i love telling them the beaty i am painting. i wish someday they see the beauty i see.
all are artist. they are.
they are creatures, only artists accepts.

=)

25 October 2005

It about the passion...

I have been kind of busy lately... Juggling a full-time job and some freelance assignments. Busy round the clock and missing out on quite alot of sleep. Somehow I still feel the adrenelin pumping and I wanted more... More of this satisfaction I get from completing an assignment and getting professional reviews (both positive and negative). It makes me grow in my creative sense and in my character. I guess this is what defines a little thing calls "passion".

Actually, passion didn't really keep me going all the time. I did thought of giving up design lately. Not because I lack the interest, but more of the unfavourable market situations and the unjustified pay. However, I'm lucky to meet people who actually inspired me in how passion can push one through his moment of difficulty and convert it to a source of unlimited potentials. They are successful in their own rights and there must be a reason why they are clinging on to their passion all these while. To me, interacting with them is like I've stepped into a classroom once again, just that, the content of the class is not technically or theoretically based. Perhaps, that is what is commonly known as "the school of life".

I came across this quote sometime back; "To know the journey ahead, ask those who came back". There is a controversy to this statement. Yes, it is important to learn from other's life journey. But what if some of the replies are negative? Would you brave all weathers to continue the journey? Or just kill your passion and stop short wherever you stand? That was actually the dilemma I faced every now and then. Art and design was an interest I carried my whole life. When I made up my mind to take up a design course in the polytechnic, instead of going to JC, my parents frowned. They gave the green light anyway, but reluctantly. I felt discouraged when I didn't topped my modules in school and started to think back on my decision. Like most of the things in life, regrets are considered a loss of time. Frankly I didn't regret. But I think it has been a bumpy road so far. I faltered at times while struggling to stand tall. However, whenever I feel my faith ebbing away, there will always be an invisible hand lifting me, dusting the dirt off my back and set me off to complete my journey.

But seriously, where does the road leads? An average designer's career lifespan isn't as long as an accountant's. Perhaps somewhere along the way, there will be a crossroad. Then will I be waiting to ask those who are returning from the journey?

I wish I had a street directory for that...