newest work

Yup Yup Yup... Finally my very own blog skin!.. Spent 2 days on the illustration and a night on the new layout... I guess it's worth it..

late supper

Oh gosh... 3.30am.. and I just finished supper... Or rather left-overs from dinner. My mom took the effort to cook, I really have no heart to reject it. And yes... I'm gaining mass. My face is sagging. I'm not dressing quite trendy. I'm not popular. I'm also this thing called "inferior complexity" is kicking in.

Inferiority, that's nothing new to me. I've been feeling this since god knows when. I think I'm very insecure and maybe plus I need alot of assurance as well. I'm pathetic. I used to wallow in self-pity quite frequently... Hang my head while I walk, like a withering flower. I admire those who have a great deal of self-confidence. I can't do that. But I have gradually come to terms with what I am or what I'm not. I'm contented being a wall-flower. I'm envious of the beautiful and the talented. Yes I am... But being myself, I'm gratified...

Darling, I know I'm plain. But thanks for assuring me... Love you for that dear.

I am just so freaking emo...

words of wisdom?

I just happened to see this comment posted by "Anonymous"... Sounds like words of wisdom...



ppl will tends to cherish things only after they lose it.

choose the easy way out might seems so much simple but u might regret in the future.

whereas if something not going to last then no pt holding on as wasting time and energy for both sides.

# posted by Anonymous : 12:43 AM



Anyway, "Anonymous", Your message is rather contridicting.. But I believe your message is to tell me to stop and smell the roses in life.. Yah??

Spongebob

The Spongebob Squarepants was quite disappointing. A true blue Spongebob Fan will know it anytime... It just lost the real essense of the cartoon series... Overdoing the whole lame but funny factor. Perhaps it's just good as a 15 min per section cartoon, not a 1 1/2 hour animation.

I'm finally getting a real headstart in my project. Getting the flow-chart planned out, ready to design the interface of the interactive. Alot of work to be done. It's gonna be a real busy week for me. Tomorrow, there's church visiting, then there's good friday and on sunday.. it's Easter! I'm gonna get baptize on Easter! I don't know if my parents will be there. Just hope that they'll accept and respect my decision to be a Catholic.

Well, gonna get back to work.. Have to keep my entry snappy in case my computer hangs again.. Computers are such pain in the ass... Errhhh!!!

let's get down down down..

**Let's get down, down, down, down..."

I'm feeling really under the weather today. Didn't even work... Sighz..Seems like I'm kinda stuck in a continual streak of bad-luck recently...

First, my computer is affected with some "shut-down syndrome" virus (same fate as the owner), it's so irritating, it keeps restarting itself every 20 mins or so. I so super-duper frustrated cause it "restarted" while I'm preparing some paperwork for my proj!! Sheesh!!

Then I'm down with flu and fever today... Feeling very "un-constructive" at home. I can't work to earn extra $$, neither can i work on my major proj! ERRRHHH...

Seriously, the series of unfortunate events just doesn't stop as yet. I discovered that the ringer function on my mobile phone is also down... So I'll have to rely on the vibration to take calls...

I don't feel too good about my self recently as well.. Somehow insecure.. Don't know why lah.. Maybe expecting too much of myself... Sigh..

Anger

To the one I care...

I treat your sisters like they were my own. I hope you realise the damage you have done. Please think before you spill nasty things out...

Walk with me, Lord

**Walk with me, Lord**
I have just encountered my first ever church retreat. It was awesome... I felt that my dear Lord had answered my prayers, doubts and worries in little, subtle ways. Through the experience, I got to interact with people whom I never talk to before in class. I've learnt so much from their experience, their perspectives on issues and their life stories... And I've also learn not to "judge a book by it's cover". I can't believe a person that I thought was Ah-beng-ish, is actually someone who has really strong faith and belief in God. It impressed me...

God works in many mysterious ways, indeed!

P.S.: Jordan, do you recall how co-incidentally we met and made up after our heated arguement? Amazing isn't it???

A fresh look?

my new haircut! 

I've got so many NEW stuff suddenly....

**NEW STUFF**
1. Hair-cut - Jordan's present to me.. I'm definately not complaining! hehe.. I like it what.. You can see how it looks like! Pic above...

2. Name - Upon baptism, I'll be known as Candice Dymphna(new!) Ng Yun Tian

3. Wallet - Choppie Ke-U-ty and Choppie Sexy brought me a GUESS wallet for B'day. Really funky.. I like~~

4. Hamster - Newest member to the family... Lemmiwinks(named after e lab rat in South Park, my cheeky bro's idea).. Courtesy of Kelvin Pang.. haha..

5. Flip-flops - Cool techni-colour flip-flops from my classmates! Woo-hoo!

It's my birthday!

My birthday was a simple but heartwarming event.. I must thank all my friends who made it happened...

*Dan*:
Thanks for calling me from London. You'll always find a friend in me...

*The Choppies*:
You girls were so darn sweet... Dan and Cher, I wanna thank u guys for singing for me.. You girls have the sweetest voice! Tine, thanks for msging me from Aust! Selvy, thanks for the raving night! I wanna hug all of you at the same time! But I can't..
:(

*All those who were with me at Zouk*:
Thanks for the whole night of booze and moves... I had a time of my life...

*My NAFA classmates*:
The UK trip has really strenghten our bond.. Sorry that I couldn't treat you guys! You guys were a fun bunch!!

*New and Old friends*:
I really appreciate your greetings and birthday wishes! Just so happy to hear from all of you!!! Take care and let's keep in touch!!!

Ashes to ashes, Dust to dust

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust... Nothing last in this world anymore. Not any material, not even emotions... Infidelity, betrayal, abuse, insolency, hurt... eventually leads to HATE... Funny how this unspoken four-letter word has the cancerous power to devour saneness of some. Funny how the angel you once loved turn his back and snap right back at you... The situation turns cynical and hate burns like a fire within you... The aftermath? Ashes settle...The once-smouldering passion has converted to useless particles... Waiting to be carried away by the wind of time...


*Wedlock Marriages*

The reason of a wedlock marriage, obviously, is because of an unexpected pregnancy between an unmarried couple. Being "forced" to the decision, true meaning of marriage is lost. Couples, that I've met, both old and young, who married out of wedlock mostly end up being unhappy or unsatisfied with their partners and in most cases, the family do not have a close-knitted relationship. Perhaps they feel that they could have accomplish more, without the marriage, without the baby, or some simply feel that they had married the wrong person.

My aunty, for example, was married out of wedlock. I was shock to learn that she wed my uncle because she was conceiving my cousin. Pre-maritial sex was uncommon, especially with the more conservative older generation. However, that's besides my point. My uncle was this petite little man, always smiling, good-natured and happy-go-lucky... Some call him the typical "hen-pecked" husband. My aunty on the other hand, always feeling that she married the wrong man, overly obsess with superstitions (believe me.. she goes overboard sometimes!!). She's a good woman.. But her mouth's always rattling away like a machine gun. One day, many many many years after their marriage, my uncle snapped! He couldn't take her tauntings anymore. He openly womanised, got drunk, be harshed to her and everything else that wasn't him initially. Sure he's having a ball of a time, but I bet the both of them are living in misery deep down in their hearts...

I've also heard similar stories from the younger generation. It didn't end up happy either.. There's always a regret here and there..

My rationale: Never let the reason to get marriage be other than "LOVE" and "COMMITMENT". Be responsible for your own sexual behaviour... Please.. Always use some form of protective.. Come on... Condoms are not expensive...

Think about yourself and your happiness... and the path you are going to lay for your offsprings...