If only...

Do you ever have that kind of feeling of extreme guilt? I do.

I made someone sad for a long long time. Without realising, I've given him the reason to smile. But it's all lost because of me. And till now, he hasn't found the same joy and happiness. It saddens me deeply to learn that all these happened due to my ignorance. One stupid decision.

Why is it that I've ruined someone's life without knowing it? Why is it that he has to hide and shun? Why didn't he open up? Time after time, Chances after chances, They slipped away.

Many times, he broke down when he phoned me. He didn't tell me the reason. Many years later, I knew the reason. It was me.

I'm the core. I'd planted the seed of misery. If only...