Lemmiwinks broke her leg :(

Lemmiwinks really has a hard life with me, her utterly irresponsible owner. She nearly drowned 9 months ago while I tried to bath her.

Guess what... I was changing her bedding just now and I realised Lemmi was limping. I thought she had a tumour or something under her belly but I dispelled the thought as soon as I see that her right hind leg was generally inactive. I froze momentarily, and silently examined her moves. So I pick her up (she never let me hold her) and surprisingly, she was tamed enough for me to transfer her to a transparent plastic tank. Afterwhich, I looked under the plastic tank to check out what causes her to limp.

To my horror, she has indeed broken her leg. It was so bad that the bone was protuding out of her fur and she is just running across the tank as usual. I have absolutely no idea how she got the fracture and it is my fault that I didn't discover it earlier. I'm really lost now. I'm not sure if I should bring her to a vet. It's too late to treat the fracture now and I'm afraid that the vet will suggest to put her to sleep. With that, the guilt of my neligence kicked in and somehow, the thought of bringing Lemmi and Cream to the SPCA crossed my mind. I really want to slap myself for being such bummer. But no. No SPCA for them. As cheesy as it may sound, "Pets are for life". Now that Lemmi has to live the rest of her life with the handicap, I'll care for her till she breath her last.

And one more thing. I promised myself that I'm not going to keep any pets in future after these 2 fur balls. It's has really been heart breaking to see them sick, dying or hurt. Plus, I'm an utterly lousy excuse of a pet owner.